Excuse me but...

Excuse me but...

I am 13 weeks preggers!! AND!! its been 70 odd days since I gave up the smelly old fags!!

so....

When I had my first and second child there was no Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, or tumblr. I am super excited to have a bun in my oven! And this time I get to show and document my feelings, fears and progress. It has been almost 16 years since I had my first and I was young and very naive. I only made it to 29 weeks and I didn't have a clue. 

Now I am soon to be 36. Some might say I am too old. I say fuck yas! lol 

I am 13 weeks and 4 days into my third pregnancy and today we had a scan. We got to sit (pretty uncomfortably) and watch on the screen the baby get checked and measured while it wiggled inside me! 

So amazing! baby was moving around like a nutta and it looked like baby was kicking up and doing sit ups. I was absolutely gushing at the screen. Total amazement. still no clue as to gender. Hoping to find out next time. 

Some people might think blah blah blah you are only bloody pregnant what's the big whoha but I want to beam about this! It was not long ago I was sure as shit I was never going to be in love, be engaged, or even want to have another baby! 

I can see back where I used to be and I pinch myself now where I am as it sometimes feels unreal. I feel alive and I feel lucky. I want to blog my stories, my thoughts and my life. People might not want to know all about my shit but I would like to say I keep it real and entertaining and there is a choice not to click on my link! 

I don't plan on blogging every single little poke and prod as I am far too sick and tired half the time to bother. I sleep like a mother fucker and luckliy now my sickness has eased back a bit. anyways...

So since the world and his brother started to use Facebook ..ECT... I have followed fellow family and friends go through the milestones in life. Photos and statuses, I have liked, commented and offered support. news that has made me smile and cry at times.

On some level I was a tad bit jealous that my peers got to share news via the internet. I got married so young, had my kids young. Some of my peers waited and the internet was the norm. When my son turned 12 I made a video with pictures (the kind I had to wait 2 days to be developed) - pictures of my tiny preemie baby. I think back to that time and feel that any parent going through that emotional roller-coaster - now- would have or I would like to think they would or could have so much online support. 

I am totally thankful for So much more family interaction via social media. Although hypocrisy. I remember when using, owning or exploring computers or the internet was seen as, 'sad' and 'pathetic' LOL 

I was called a lot of things but addicted I was. It was new and exciting and it connected me to a world away from my own personal hell. Now everyone has the power in their pocket. Phones connect us and we all know someone that can't put their fucking phone down while having company lol

But regardless of my mini rant I am glad it is the way it is now. I wouldn't want it any other way!!

I love that I can share and declare my love and news. I am glad that now almost everyone is within  reaching distance. I am going to get to share my pregnancy online week by week and ups and   downs will be shared and   support   felt and it  is super exciting and joyful :)

Enjoy my scan pics from today 

See you soon 

Mel x