AHH.. THAT'S BETTER

After a long and distance 6 weeks holiday, today is the first day I felt I am back in College mode. I almost didn’t go today as my sofa seemed way more appealing than the class room. Yet, I did get my arse up, out and to College. Today I did not travel up with a fellow classmate and once I pulled into the car park at college I was thankful. The car in question, is a very nice car, don’t get me wrong but it is a boy car and is very much a profile car. No suspension and 2 exhausts – very meaty! However, bumpy and noisy as fuck and my brain rattles for the whole 35 minute journey giving me one fucktard of a headache. The road we travel is not the flattest either. 2 minute roller coaster ride weeee yes I love it. 35 minutes and I am begging to get off. That is without 2 and half hours in class room learning and then a further 35 minutes trip home! So as much as I do appreciate the ride to save on petrol I am glad I took my own car today. Now back to the point. I was not going to go for many reasons but I did. I am very glad I did go. As going to College has just pushed me back in the right direction.

Me in the class room –

Now I do not pride myself on being incredibly infuriating * cough* I just seem to rub people up that way. Maybe I have an air of arrogance about me, maybe I come off as a know it all, opinionated bitch – I am sure most will agree. But I maintain now and always, I do NOT know everything, nor do I claim that I do, not even close, and I am entitled to my option and have learned to shush up and not express it at every given opportunity. Many might confuse my opinion with me being honest...psh not everybody likes to hear it and again I have started to be more aware to shut my fucking mouth. As for being arrogant, it’s a false confidence to hide how nervous and shy I really I am. I admitted this in class today. I do talk a lot in class about the subject matter. I do not challenge my tutor but confirm a different perspective. A lot of the time asking a question or two and including other class members that I may have spoken to before about something during break or in a social situation. My tutor gave me an encouraging comment on my role within the class today which made me smile. I am sure I will continue to annoy the crap out of some people in the class. I have learned that this is bound to happen now and then. I am there to learn so I do not have a problem asking for a better understanding. * shrugs* So even though I was not in the best of moods today I did open up in class and revealed some aspects of my personality to my tutor and class mates. I don’t think this will stop me from being considered irritating some how but I feel better for it. I feel I’m back on the right road J


Happy Monday people …..