YES! I am back bitches... have you missed me??
Wow I really have neglected the blog reading world. I can do
nothing but apologies but the real world sucked me in and ate me up!
So Christmas came and went! Had a wonderful time with my amazing family. My heart wasn’t
in it exactly as my children are getting older and that, ‘magic’ has seemed too
fizzy a tad. This makes me feel a bit sad.
New Year was a little bit of an anticlimax also but my
continuing cluster fuck of mood swings has no sense of time, so feeling increasingly
anxious and down on that particular evening was just shit luck.
So… what’s been happening in Mel’s world.. I hear you asking
with breath that is baited.
As most will know I do live an incredibly dull life but I do
seem too attracted my own amounts of drama, either that or I create
them so I don’t get bored!
So having spent a full year of being single and in a vain
attempt to help out a loved one. I decided to poke around the avid and lucrative
site that is, 'plenty of fish.' Now, after only few hours I knew this site was a bad move, bad bad bad move! People like me should not be allowed on to these sites!
In retrospect I can’t hate it but I will blog a post coating
the whole plenty of fish community and expectations that comes with online
dating sites. You can look forward to that post coming soon!
2 weeks on plenty of fish and 3 dates, then off the site for 3 weeks
then back on 1 day for another date – or 3. ( mummies boy- another post about that some other time) I then tired of it. Tired of the bullshit.
So I figured I would write an outstandingly repelling profile. I can now reveal
this was the perfect bait to catch a fish. I choose to not add a picture either so I could seem too many as
a no go zone.
My profile has now been deleted. Since I met
David. I should probably ask him if it’s OK to refer to him by his real name. I
will do that later ;)
So we spent some time talking on Xbox live and playing
games, then we exchange phone numbers to text, then to phone calls and face time, then to
dates to now spending a lot of time together. I can honestly say I am in a fairly
nice place. I still struggle with my insecurities and paranoia, sadness and anxiety
but Dave has seen some of my worst stuff and has been amazingly supportive and
understanding with it all. Probably because his crazy like me! Anyone seen the
movie silver lining playbook??
Ha my life is sometimes nothing but dull and sometimes it is
mental!
I am back in therapy in the next few months and hoping to
rejoin the working world sometime later this year. I can not wait for the warm
weather and my good old friend that is a massive ball of fire that burns in the
sky.
This year feels like many new possibilities and adventures.
I hope I have not just jinxed myself and my own happiness.
more posts soon…..
Mel x
You should write about Plenty of Fish. That sort of thing is always funny when you look back afterwards.
ReplyDeleteI can't wait to hear about the dating site. It sounds like you have some stories to tell.
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