Hop, Skip and Jump

I am so thankful for the cool breeze! I feel like I am in an oven on the outside and I am cooking on the inside! 

This pregnancy is chugging along nicely. It has been ten years since being pregnant and yet it feels like I slept through that pregnancy. My memories of it are not flooding back very quickly at all. 

I lay holding my belly trying to remember being pregnant before and the only snips I really remember was fear, panic, date watching. I am not sure I got to enjoy my pregnancy with Charlie due to all the fear from my crazy and painful pregnancy with Robert.

I am enjoying each little prod and poke developing within me, getting stronger each day. I am almost 18 weeks pregnant and I am gaining baby belly lbs now. I feel I am wishing July away as the appointment we are all waiting for is at the end of July. Sometimes I sit and really take in what's happening and what is going to happen. I can't do this for too long as I tend to freak myself out a tad. I know my life as I know it will change and there is a small part of me that fears that change. On some level I have been avoiding any change for a number of years. I can't honestly say that all my emotions are in the right place just yet however; they are levelling out a bit everyday. Feeling a bit more like me again this is a good thing for everyone. 

Now new physical challenges await me. I have kinda, sorta   managed to do some damage control on the couple of pounds of weight I have put on my belly I struggled to pull the plug out the bath. Having weak and painful wrists hoisting my not so light self out a tub of water is starting to need a work up of momentum. Before pregnancy I wasn't ever a little woman but flexible due to yoga and some core strength. I feel those days have truly been and gone! Well, till post baby anyway. The nerve in my right arse cheek is still amusing itself with its cosmic jokes of hurting and tickling at the same time. Not always able to stand up and walk because of it. Find myself rubbing and jiggling my right arse cheek to help movement. This looks a tad odd whilst in Tesco. 

So now it's a hop, skip and jump to the 6 weeks holidays and years before I have dreaded this time, this time I am looking forward to it. 

Remembering my Nan and letting her know how much I miss her everyday I can now plan on Spending some time with my boys, enjoying some nice weather and some down time and family visits. 

TTFN

Mel x