HANGING UP

I know this might seem random and complete nonsense but I was thinking the other day about some stuff... yes I am being real vague... However, I had recently had a telephone conversation that, well basically started to piss me off. I hung up the phone - yes I am one of them wankers that hang up on you - so sue me.

Anyway, I hung up but I didn't feel any real satisfaction in it. I guess having the last word just don't cut it any more! A nice ‘fuck you.’ before hanging up perhaps.

When I sat and thought about it I realised it is not the thing that is said before hanging up. Although sometimes the last words said to someone can send shock waves of pain none the less. I believe it is that we don’t have 'phones with receivers any more. Slamming that phone down and hearing the clattering of plastic as the receiver makes contact with the phone unit had a great deal of satisfaction. In this day and age no such luck. We all have cordless, digital  handsets with caller ID so the best I can do is lob my handset after a well timed - beep- of the phone at a sofa full of cushions. Let me just say this did not help my anger. Don’t even get me started on mobile phones; you have to premeditate hanging up on them fucking things now. You have to run your finger across the screen before holding a button down for 3 or 4 seconds. The whole ' go fuck yourself ' BEEEEEEEEP is not as satisfying. I have to admit - I did like the old flip phones. Where you could simply close the phone up and snap that fucker shut to hang up - oh yes! Or... or! ... The phones that used to slide at the button, again simple and coolly you can just slide that baby up and the person that was pissing you off - gone.

Now, I am not promoting hanging up. I do it as I get so pissed off it is a knee jerk reaction. Those whom know me the best know without a doubt I have got one mean temper on me. I have been brought up in such a way that I have not always shown my temper to people – mainly family members. All I can say to those people, is you are lucky! I remind my parents often how lucky they are I don’t scream off in somebody’s face that truly deserves it. I hold my shit together when needed. Yet on the phone I tend not to, I sometimes try very hard to not just simply hang up. I have tried more recently to give off a warning like ' I am going now' then hanging up which simply means you are pissing me off don't ring me back. That seemed to be the problem with hanging up on people. They maybe didn't understand that they pissed me off when I hung up. They maybe thought ' oh she got cut off; I will ring her back,'

I had manners drummed into me as a child so ignoring people fills me with guilt. I would rather tell someone to fuck off. What? It is honest! If I happen to be in a situation where I am ignoring someone, there normally is a very good reason behind it. I am not generally that rude. Well not in that way anyway.

Anyways... that is my thoughts for the morning!