HIPPY

Hippy not Hippo!! -- stupid fucking auto correct!

Hummmm I am starting to wonder. Perhaps this is something I could look into now. Bohemian princess what do you think? I meditate, I listen to chill out music, I enjoy the pure earthy elements, and I feel I am somewhat a liberal spiritual person. Would you say I could qualify as a hippy?

On a completely different note altogether. I have had a rather not so great day for a few reasons. Having pledged that, I would not discuss people (without prior permission and non family members) that come in and out of my life, via my blog. I find myself struggling to fight the urge not to discuss a recent tragic situation. So as I have the freedom of write (ho ha teehee) on my own to do and thus I shall.

Set aside the ‘I am I a hippy?’ question slowly let it float back into the back ground. I find myself a tad pissed off. Now feeling pissed off is just another emotion that we all feel but is sometimes frowned upon. In some cases frowned upon just as much as the subject of masturbating. Anyway. Am I not allowed to be pissed off? Is it unnatural to be pissed off or wank for that matter? Is that not all apart of living? (Oh yes I am on one tonight.) However, wanking has no place in this post so strike that!

Apparently, according to someone.... let’s call him Prick. So according to Prick, I leave myself to get lied to and used by men. His reaction to me being a little miffed with a comment he had made before hand. This possibly is not making allot of sense – humour me please...

I was told that due to the fact that I have children, Prick would never be able to consider a relationship. Prick is 39 and looking for someone that doesn’t have complications or kids. (Can you hear me laughing now?)  So you can imagine my reaction to this. Prick don’t know anything about my kids, nor my wants or plans in life. Yet the idea that a man would dismiss the idea just because I have children did in fact bring up a strong annoyance. Fair to say that everyone has their stuff and this was Prick’s issue. I still felt sensitive about this. In all the years I have wandered around single and meeting new people I have never heard anyone utter such a thing. Yet, to add insult to injury, Prick has a teenage child of his own! I may well be out of order for reaction in the way I did, I did not attack Prick. I simply pointed out that I was disappointed with his massive assumption, judgemental, and short sightedness. The real kicker was that the reason we had spoke in the first place was because we were saying how shallow, short sighted and ignorant people are at times.

This then allowed me to feel he was on a level that understood me. Disappointing! So I sat and thought and spoke about this and then thought some more. I asked another friend what they thought of the situation and they said, ‘maybe they just wanted shag and didn’t want anything to do with your kids?’  This got me thinking. Is that not the exact same behaviour as most the men that enter and quickly leave my life?  So, Prick was up front about his non-agenda, should that make the fact seem plausible? Prick still got the same treatment from me as if he had lied. I am not stupid; I know when someone is interested in me and not my family. 

This baffled me as one of the discussions Prick and I had, had been about instincts and following your gut. I might not get told the truth but I have a good instinct to when I am being lied to. Prick quickly went defensive and reacted with attack. The attack is what I first mentioned.

I don’t feel as annoyed now just a little down trodden as I had started to have faith in people again. Prick read my blog and then decided that I was someone to be cautious of. This statement made by Prick has now turned inward and has me wonder if I am a fruit loop, over complicated, sociopathic danger zone. Or is it simply Prick, is exactly what his name suggests he is.

Rank over back to your lives people Hippy Christmas J lol